Ways in which I describe m emotional response to missing my mom:
Frog in throat.
Eyes like two lightly-boiled eggs.
Mount set like a streak of piss.
Adult male gorilla syndrome.
Adolescent male chimpanzee finally figuring out what to crack a nut with syndrome.
Getting high on life.
Getting LOW on life.
Getting exhausted by the whole prospect of life, the universe, & everything.
Needing a nap.
Not knowing what to say to my father.
Knowing what to say to my father, but not being able to say it.
Guilt over all of the above.
Elation resulting from all of the above.
Guilt & depression about that last thing.