It’s been too long since I’ve written you. So much has been happening with the family. For example: dad & grandma have been speaking regularly! SEVERAL TIMES A WEEK!
Thought you would like that.
He & I are talking too, but I get the feeling he suspects I’m just calling him to be nice. He says the same thing about the Pearlmans.
My shrink (sorry, I know your feelings w.r.t. psychologists) calls this “negating the positive,” so there’s something.
In my less charitable moments, I call it wallowing in self-pity.
I had do drive him home after dinner tonight.
How do I say this?
We had a long conversation about how fucked up the two of us felt about your death. Dad screams at “god” in the mornings; I fight with my wife over who gets to miss you more.
It’s kind of a mess.
I’m trying here, mom. I really am.
Always missing you,